start over

you and i,
we are no different.

we all deserve a new beginning.

we all deserve a new exciting story.

we all deserve to be happy.

what had happened in previous book cannot be undone. but on the bright side, we can learn from it.

we are all human being, not a punching bag. don't destroy yourself too hard just because you have made silly mistakes in life.

it's time to write a new chapter in a whole new book. if you're not ready to hold a pen, know that God has written the best story for you already. take a breath, take your first step and start writing.

inshaAllah, He will guide you.

merdeka day, why you no merrier like before?

24 hours more to go before celebrating our 56th Merdeka Day. But I decided to post this early since it is a lil bit hard to find time to write. Every year, Merdeka Day is always clashing with my final examination haha. Feels bad about it.

Apparently, what I see Merdeka Day is no more celebration for Malaysians minus politics and emotions like how it was before. If you are walk away along the street and if you are driving a vehicle in highway, it is quite rare to see people waving Jalur Gemilang flag on their vehicle. 

I remembered in my school days a few years back, every 31st of August mesti like 'omg! excitednyerrr'!. Ada Inter-Class Coir Competition. Ada Poster Drawing Competition. Ada pertandingan hias basikal siapa paling cantik. It was good you know. But, not now. I can see it in myself. The excited-ness is fading away as the time I get older.

But hey, I still love my country. I patriotik kot!! Kann? *maluuu..

Merdeka is meaningful to me, and not only me, all malaysians I guess. Yet sometimes, the way government hijacking the event make me unhappy. Semak. Serabut. Annoying. Whereby instead of celebrating it on behalf of all Malaysian, they made it as their occasion to promote their 'party' itself. They manipulate the event. Period. 

"Malaysiaku Berdaulat. Tanah Tumpahnya Darahku."

Merdeka Day slogan for this year is away better if compared to last year after all. ihiks. This is what I can tell even the slogan is pretty long macam sajak. Hehe no offense meant.

Lastly, my down-to-earth hopes for my country Malaysia, I feel proud to be malaysian and wishing you a meaningful 56th Merdeka Day. *Bighuggssss to you fellass!

Remember the ones who granted us to get Merdeka in the first place. Without His wills, we wouldn't have the taste of independence. Say thank you Allah. Yet, thank you to our fore father for brought us this independence.

Assalamualaikum.

the ultimate guidance, selamat datang nuzul quran!

assalamualaikum, musliminions =)

semoga jumaat hari ini membawa keberkatan yang berganda ganda ganda ganda kepada seluruh umat islam di seluruh dunia. hiks.

"speaking in english doesn't makes you an english-men." - tun mahathir
and literally,  same goes when you can quote quote a line or two from the Quran, doesn't makes you better than other muslims. just because you are wearing hijab and kopiah whilst others didn't, doesn't makes you better than other muslims.

one thing to ponder, modesty is not only shown based on how you act and what you wear.
but our knowledge too. kan?

be curious always!
for knowledge will not acquire you.
you must acquire them.
*uishhhh. macam motivator lak. ehehehehe =p

but hey, beware of false knowledge.
cuz' it is more dangerous than ignorance.

it's our responsibility to do dakwah.
yet, it's hard to do dakwah if we are in lack of knowledge.

and jangan lupa, knowledge should humble you. "ikut resmi padi, makin berisi, makin tunduk."

P.S : hari ni nuzul quran! hari yang mana Allah turunkan al-quran, the one and only our ultimate guidance. surah apa yang Allah turunkan? Here you go, awesome people : Surah Al Alaq (1 - 5). nuzul quran falls on friday, it is indeed a blessing =)

less than 10 minutes before break fast time. salam iftar to all of you, fasting people! =)
happy ramadhan kareem.

Helpless

14th day of Ramadhan is approaching.

Come to think of it, Ramadhan flies so fast.

Ramadhan this year falls on my busy schedule. And I gotta say when I've a busy schedule, keeping focused and caring about my own spiritual deeds are not easy. Sad truth. Well yeah, I know.

I had the feeling deep in my gut that there'd been lines I should have spoken, action I should have made, that would have made my Ramadhan better. But looking back, I didn't know what they are. Nothing I can do about it. Helpless.

"And the life of this world is nothing but play and amusement." [Al An'am : 34]

recover soon, lahad datu

when all parties claimed their side is the one and only right side.
when they keep pointing fingers at each other.

BN pointing fingers at PR.
PR pointing fingers at BN.
Najib pointing fingers at Anwar.
Anwar pointing fingers at Najib.

within that interval of time, 6 died.

if it is true. it's truly sad that Sabah had to be the victim. A question that 'pops' - "WHY NOW?"

politics tick me off. one can choose to ignore. however, when it costs the lives of others. it something that you can simply let go.

for those who keep saying this lahad datu crisis not involved politics. like SERIOUSLY? you know what. these things happened because of politics. politics is the root cause. period.

and for those who feel disheartened by those who seem to be bickering about politics when live are at stake in lahad datu. please don't be. i believe it is these people who are always praying for the safety of those who are involved. we care. that's why we get angered. kannn?

whatever it is. keep on praying for the safety of our heroes and our people. and keep praying this crisis will not be prolonged. my condolence to those who died.

"jangan politikkan semua benda. semua perkara. sampai lupa apa fungsi utama berpolitik dalam negara"

recover soon, lahad datu. ameeen. :'( *manly tears

main kasar

Main kasar.

Makin dibiarkan makin kasar. Lagak tak ubah macam orang gasar.

Apa kau rasa main kasar buat kau nampak kacak?

Datang tidak diundang. Pergi tidak dilarang. Datang tiba - tiba.
Rapat - rapat. Betul - betul di depan mata kepala aku.
Perguna 'property' aku tanpa permisi aku.

Kau fikir aku mampu nak menghadap semua?
Kau fikir aku mampu nak menghadap satu - satu revolusi yang engkau bawa?
Cuba kau jawab.

Tak boleh, bukan?

Aku selesa dengan jalan yang aku tuju.
Dikurnia Iman, Islam dan Itu.
Dan jalanku hanya satu. Kerana Tuhanku.

Beginilah aku.

Jangan tanya kenapa aku memilih untuk berada disini.
Kerana aku tak memilih untuk berada di sana.

Sebab?
Hanya Pencipta aku yang tahu. Senyum.

Blissful Monday

It's Monday again. If you are woke up this morning with a good health, you are definitely blessed! Be very very very grateful for that. Say Alhamdulillah. Have you say Alhamdulillah for today?

Life is a long way and usrah helps me to resemble a lot. Yesterday, my sisters and I were having our 'usrah' for this weekend. Everybody was like so joyous and excited to share what they've read. It's awesome mashaAllah.  I was very interested with a quote delivered by Afiqah last night. Touche, indeed.

It's in Malay. (quoted by Imam As-Shafie)

Barangsiapa yang tidak redha atas ketentuan-Ku, tidak sabar atas ujian yang Aku turunkan, tidak bersyukur akan nikmat yang Aku berikan, dan tidak memadai dengan pemberian-Ku. Maka sembahlah Tuhan selain daripada Aku. 

Barangsiapa yang berpagi-pagi dengan perasaan dukacita terhadap kehidupan dunianya, seolah-olah dia berpagi-pagi dalam keadaan memarahi-Ku. Barangsiapa membantah atas musibah yang Aku timpakan padanya, sesungguhnya dia telah membantah-Ku.  

Barangsiapa yang bertemu dengan orang kaya lalu merendah diri kerana kekayaannya, maka terkeluarlag 2/3 daripada agamanya. Barangsiapa yang memukul mukanya kerana meratapi mayat, seolah-olah dia mengambil panah untuk membunuh-Ku. 

Barangsiapa yang mematahkan kayu di atas kuburan kerana meratapi kematian, seolah-olah dia menghancurkan pintu Kaabah-Ku di tangannya. 

Barangsiapa yang tidak menghiraukan dari jalan mana dia memperolehi makanan (halal atau haram), maka Allah juga tidak akan hiraukan untuk memasukkan kamu ke dalam mana-mana pintu neraka.  

Barangsiapa yang tidak meningkatkan agamanya. maka dia orang yang kurang. Barangsiapa yang kurang maka mati itu lebih utama baginya. 

Barangsiapa yang mengamalkn apa-apa yang dia tahu nescaya Allah akan mengurniakan apa yang dia tidak tahu. 

Barangsiapa yang memanjangkan angan-angannya, tidak akan ikhlas amalannya.

*Respond to the quotation that I 'bold'..
Seeing a lot of people nowadays, and me myself sometimes keep complaining when Monday comes. Kan?

"Omg! It's Monday again."
"Alaa, malasnya nak pergi kelas pagi-pagi Isnin ni."
"Sekejapnya dah Isnin!"

No offense. I am giving the example based on the experienced.
And after heard about this, I was like, "Papppp! Sebijik kena kat muka." Tertunduk. Segan. #REFLECT

The Hopes for Blessed and Organized November

After so long not blogging and after 2 months after grandma passed away, yet, only at this moment I feel like to blog. I missed to write here. I haven't been blogging because to be honest, I feel like words cannot expressed my feeling and my thoughts.

Let's get back to our topic. Well, it's November again. A year has went by so quick. Kan? Pejam celik pejam celik sekejap je dah mid-semester break (UTP is in our mid-sem break now actually. But, I didn't go back. Since a lots of stuff need to be settled before another half semester started). I hope this month is about to be good. Yeah, a few good things gonna happen in this November. I guess. Haha :

1. Angah will be sitting on her SPM examination on 6th of November. So, I'd like to wish you, Angah. All The Best and All Iz Well! Keep Calm and try to collect as many A's as you can. Since, it gonna be tough to collect A's when you entered university life later on. Along and family loves you!♥
   
2. On the next four days, which is on November 6. I'm turning into 20! Hip hip hurray to me! Yeayyy. I'm so excited. Sounds 'forever alone' gila kan when it goes to wish birthday untuk diri sendiri? Kayyy -___- Hopefully inshaallah, the adding of my age will be parallel with the adding of my Iman, Taqwa, success, knowledge, and all good things in life. =)
   I promised I'll behave. I'll be more disciplined and organized. #NovemberWish.
   
3. These next four weeks, gonna be tough and rough. Since, my crew and me will be busy in conducting an event collaboration of MPPUTP and HELWI_UTP which is "HEY, Ladies!" event. An event that we specially created for the females community in UTP. I'm done sending the event proposal this morning to the management. Let's hope for a good news soon =)

 Visited Angah at STF last weekend with le familia.
Quality time :)

It has been two months since my grandma passed away.
May Allah be pleased with her and grant her Jannatul Firdaus. Aminnn.

Salam Jumaat to all. Assalamualaikum.

DupDapDupFINALEXAMDapDupDap

Assalamualaikum. Have been going through hectic schedule recently. It feels like yesterday I just registering the courses for this semester. 17 credit hours kalau total up-semuanya sekali. What I can say, May12 semester is so fast. In a blink of eye, on the next four days, final exam will be started.

But alas, as they say, you can't escape from facing the many twists and tribulations that life has to offer. Move forward is the best choice :)

Mak provided me with a loads of foods yesterday before I went back to UTP (kuih raya and kerepek to be exact, Oh! nasik paprik not to be forgotten. Hihi). And yet, when we shake hands and hugged each other, she whispered :

"All the best final. Usaha selagi mana terdaya. Stay positive. Turn back to Him."

Exam Slip :)

With this thought whirring in my mind, I was remembered how Allah had blessed me with in previous Ramadhan. Even I never had sahur with my family. Even I only had one time iftar together with my family. But, still. Having the opportunities to celebrate Eid Mubarak together with my family is really something. I still remembered when one of my friend, Kak Suha lost her mum and her youngest brother in a car accident while they were on their way back from an airport. And one of my cousin, Kak Linda lost her beloved abah on the first week of Ramadhan. Allahurabbi :'(

InshaAllah mak. Thank you for the words. And ease my things Ya rabb.

And I hope it's not too late to wish you brothers ans sisters Happy Eid Mubarak. Forgive me for any wrongdoings and mistakes that I made either intentionally or unintentionally. And may we forgive each other too! Not too forget, congratulations for all University of Ramadhan graduates! :)

3-in-1 entry. (finalexam+ramadhan+raya) . It's better I guess ^__^

Semoga kita semua dilapangkan dada, ditenangkan akal fikiran dan dikurniakan result yang diidamkan untuk final exam kali ini. Aminnnn.

Assalamualaikum.