Al-Fatihah to My Late Grandmother

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

I don't know on how to begin but somehow I want to blog about it. It happens so fast in a blink of eye. I got a message telling my grandmother who I have always called 'nyai' passed away this morning around 10.00am. And, during that time, I'am having my final paper for Structured Programming and Database System subject. :'(

And I for circumstances is unable to properly morn my grandmother's death since I've another important paper tomorrow morning which is Mass Transfer Design paper. Last time I met her was a week back then during Hari Raya Puasa. Ya Allah, I don't even know it would be our last met.

It such a relief when mum told me :

"Alhamdulillah. Nyai 'pergi' dalam keadaan senang. Tersenyum. Jangan banyak menangis. Banyakkan doa. Supaya nyai ditempatkan dalam kalangan orang yang beriman ye?"

Thank you 'nyai' for taking care of us: Along, Angah and Irfan a few years back then. When abah and emak is out for work. Yet, emak is working those days. And 'nyai' is the one who always keep waiting for us coming back from the school. Again, thank you for what you've done. Thank you for giving birth to emak. Thank you for keeping the family together ♥

Inshaallah. Till we meet again in Jannah. 

To the muslim readers of my blog, may I humbly ask for your favor to 'sedekah' Al-Fatihah for my late grandmother? Her name is Aminah binti Saat. May Allah be pleased with her and grant her Jannah. 

Assalamualaikum.

Trust in Allah's Timing

hola people hola!


mengadap henpon tersenyum-senyum,
assalamualaikum.
*pantun dua kerat. eheh*


Banyak kekangan yang menghalang untuk menconteng di sini sejak dua menjak ni. Sekejap ke sana, sekejap ke sini. Kalah Perdana Menteri (okay ini hiperbola). Secara jujur, dua minggu kebelakangan ni, memang hectic. Dengan test, quizzes, presentation, events and so on buat diri rasa semput nak bernafas. Letih. 


Today, CM result is out. 


And, result aku memang tak berapa nak okay pada perkiraan aku.
Nak kata tak belajar, dah belajar.
Nak kata aku ponteng kelas, hari-hari aku pergi kelas.
Nak kata tak buat latihan, aku buat.
I don't really knows where the flaws is.

"Mungkin keberkatan tu takde. Belajar sebab nak score. Bukan sebab Allah." 

ucap Puan Emak di hujung talian membuatkan anak sulungnya yang seorang ni sebok berceloteh potpetpotpet sedih itulah sedih inilah terdiam. Hati tersentak. Mungkin betul kata emak. Aku belajar sebab nak score. Ultimate!


Konklusi? Nak buat apa-apa kena betulkan niat. And trust with His timing. Iylia kata, jangan down lama-lama. He got a better plan for us ahead. Sometimes God doesn't give us anything you want, it's not because you don't deserve it. But you deserve more. Ya, aku pun harap macam tu . 

Trust in His timings

Rely on His promises

Wait for His answers

Believe for his miracles

Rejoice in His goodness

Relax in His presence

"Oo Allah. Ease my journey. Amin.."


thank you for reading.

Sesungguhnya..

Sesungguhnya, orang-orang mukmin itu bersaudara

(Hujurat : 10)

Lama. Ya. Lama yang teramat. Itu yang mampu diungkap apabila 'jumpthejoy' dibuka. Honest, semakin hari idea semakin kering untuk menulis. Kadangkala terlintas di akal yang hanya tiga quartal warasnya, 

"Bloody difficult! Even one short post, i couldn't make. Maybe it's time to stop. And close this blog, perhaps"

Tapi, sayanggg. Takkan nak tutup. Wasted pulak nanti. Tak begitu?

Ya. Itu penyebab major wujudnya entry baru hari ini.

*tears of joy.haha*

#NotaKaki : Dalil al-Hujurat ayat 10 itu memang tiada kaitan dengan isi. Hanya peringatan .

Kalau tak mampu buat semua, jangan tinggal semua . Happy Friday! :)

Semakin Tumpul

And again. Perangai lama masa semester satu datang menginap dalam diri.

What is going on with me? I don't know! My study SCHEDULE is getting LOOSE. Gonna have Organic Chemistry paper on tomorrow. Tapi i think my preparation towards it 'macam hangat-hangat tahi ayam'. Haih. kecewa dengan diri sendiri. I'd really want to get 3.5 and above, but seems i'm not gonna be a Father of Dean's List for this semester.

Being focused on something that i think i'm not supposed to. Worried about the future, the past. Instead of i should dealing with the now. This is only my second semester but i'd disappointed with myself for

not being consistent in studying. Especially when i got a dean's list during my foundation programme and it should boost me up :(

Yeah yeah! i've to realize this is the ultimate year for me. Next 4 months holiday, gonna apply to be a 'cikgu tuisyen' or 'cikgu sambilan', o substitute teacher are supposed to have a good result, is it?? Hewhewhew.

With that i shall end this post. Got a loads of chapters to be completed.

okbai!(:

say no to this 'tumpul-ness' :)

"O.. Allah, please give strength to me to face all this challenge in my life..give me a calm heart to achieve my target..guide me with Your blessings . ameennn.."