start over

you and i,
we are no different.

we all deserve a new beginning.

we all deserve a new exciting story.

we all deserve to be happy.

what had happened in previous book cannot be undone. but on the bright side, we can learn from it.

we are all human being, not a punching bag. don't destroy yourself too hard just because you have made silly mistakes in life.

it's time to write a new chapter in a whole new book. if you're not ready to hold a pen, know that God has written the best story for you already. take a breath, take your first step and start writing.

inshaAllah, He will guide you.

half decade journey ends here

assalamualaikum!

graduate in bachelor (eng) of chemical engineering

here i am today crossing one of my life bucket list.

so, i've been occupied these past few days with farewell and final year stuffs particularly on final year viva presentation, dissertation and final exam too. i ended my very last paper yesterday. the lecturer had been helping too much for this one especially on the questions he gave us and the coursework mark. so there shouldn't be an excuse from me to not pass nor score. this one too shall pass.

5 years. it was a tough journey. i never had the thought that i could finish it two weeks back then. i was exhausted back-to-forths with my final year project, not to mention many long cuddling over the keyboard, trying to make the words come out right for my project dissertation writing.

i learned incredibly valuable things throughout this five years. on entering university for foundation programme on may 2010, there is absolutely no way i would have imagined the things i have done, the experiences i have had, all that i have achieved and the incredible people i have met. alhamdulillah, i have been fortunate and privileged enough to be able to learn from many people who know better in every single things that i encountered.

some of my juniors who were just finished their internship and about to pursue their final year studies had bombed my whatsapp for the past few days with tonne of questions, "how can i survived my final year with tonnes of projects and all?" "what major should i go for?" "how do you cope with it"

here are some tips that i think might help (clearing my throat hehe):

1. what's matters to you defines your mattering

regardless of what engineering programme you are in, go for major that can makes you passionate, you stick with it and get educated in it. doing something you love makes your life 1000% fulfilled, 1000% more interesting up to the extend where the subjects you learnt, the lecturers who taught you, the classmates becomes a part of you too.

2. nothing worth having comes easy

go wholeheartedly into anything in order to achieve anything worth having. this is the truest i think. as what i learnt in principle of chemical engineering class that,

mass in = mass out

it keeps telling that i only get out what i put in. and it is no lie. so if you think it's worth it, do it. think of how good it feel when you finish.

3. time management

knowing as a final year student, things around you might be a roller coaster ride. every single seconds are all about chasing the deadlines or you dead. be aware of how you use your time and get some me-time for your own self, okay? do not procrastinate in doing things, and you will be fine. 

4. be kind to people near you

you will get like endless of joshes from your seniors how stressful final year it is (like what i did in previous point hehe). at those times when everything was going haywire and you are being pulled in multiple directions, still, be kind to others. for everyone we meet is fighting a hard battle. even saidina abu bakr mentioned to his companions, "if you expect the blessings of God, you have to be kind to His people".

5. do more of what makes you happy and be happy

final year shall not stop you from doing things that makes you happy. because at the end of the day, you are doing something that would change your own lifetime. smile and stop acting so small.

all the best !

almost the end

i am in the midst of designing a distillation column for my plant design project and i am having this headache that i couldn't describe how stressful it is (stressful yet i still have the courage to write. bravo me!)

been so long since my last post and tonight at this very hour i decided to write something. so i've been in this university for a little more than 41/2  year now. and i have finally assumed the role of Ms IK, the engineer. mixed feelings, man. mixed feelings.

around four years back, i entered this university life that are totally new to me and i grew to like it. i make friends including the one that i've never had the thought to talk to previously, i was involved in society (SRCUTP) and got to meet a lot of great and passionate people who are out there to make a difference through their own means and courage. 

i handled a corporate-ish event (Technology, Education and Career - TEC), a career fair and i got to meet a lot of 'elite' people shall i say. they wanted to help people in securing a job. they wanted to do good things. i admire them and i respect them for that.

i also got to experience what a 9-to-5 kind of job is for real during my internship a semester back then. it takes up a really huge chunk in my life, you see. and if you dislike those kind of jobs, it is very unhealthy. but that's different story altogether lah kan.

anyway, i'm in my final year final semester now. and i gotta tell'ya it's been a roller coaster ride and i don't expect to stop or to quit anytime soon. hard times make you grow, isn't it? to have to find a balance between my projects, self time and responsibilities is challenging. to get an enough sleep is challenging. rest in peace my sleeping pattern. these eyebags are better be worth it.

there have been times when i just sit on my study table, got stuck like what i'm doing now, not knowing what to do, staring at the window knowing the time is near and i shall end my uni life for good. heck, i can still find it within myself to smile about it even if i were in my lowest state.

i've holding on in engineering for, what, four years? of course i'm terrible. there is time when i'm so weak just like everybody else. and just like everybody else, you'll get better with each failure. can cry now. but persist. your family needs you, yan. and you do want to do that, right? think about that and you'll be fine.

may peace be upon you.