almost the end

i am in the midst of designing a distillation column for my plant design project and i am having this headache that i couldn't describe how stressful it is (stressful yet i still have the courage to write. bravo me!)

been so long since my last post and tonight at this very hour i decided to write something. so i've been in this university for a little more than 41/2  year now. and i have finally assumed the role of Ms IK, the engineer. mixed feelings, man. mixed feelings.

around four years back, i entered this university life that are totally new to me and i grew to like it. i make friends including the one that i've never had the thought to talk to previously, i was involved in society (SRCUTP) and got to meet a lot of great and passionate people who are out there to make a difference through their own means and courage. 

i handled a corporate-ish event (Technology, Education and Career - TEC), a career fair and i got to meet a lot of 'elite' people shall i say. they wanted to help people in securing a job. they wanted to do good things. i admire them and i respect them for that.

i also got to experience what a 9-to-5 kind of job is for real during my internship a semester back then. it takes up a really huge chunk in my life, you see. and if you dislike those kind of jobs, it is very unhealthy. but that's different story altogether lah kan.

anyway, i'm in my final year final semester now. and i gotta tell'ya it's been a roller coaster ride and i don't expect to stop or to quit anytime soon. hard times make you grow, isn't it? to have to find a balance between my projects, self time and responsibilities is challenging. to get an enough sleep is challenging. rest in peace my sleeping pattern. these eyebags are better be worth it.

there have been times when i just sit on my study table, got stuck like what i'm doing now, not knowing what to do, staring at the window knowing the time is near and i shall end my uni life for good. heck, i can still find it within myself to smile about it even if i were in my lowest state.

i've holding on in engineering for, what, four years? of course i'm terrible. there is time when i'm so weak just like everybody else. and just like everybody else, you'll get better with each failure. can cry now. but persist. your family needs you, yan. and you do want to do that, right? think about that and you'll be fine.

may peace be upon you.

The Hopes for Blessed and Organized November

After so long not blogging and after 2 months after grandma passed away, yet, only at this moment I feel like to blog. I missed to write here. I haven't been blogging because to be honest, I feel like words cannot expressed my feeling and my thoughts.

Let's get back to our topic. Well, it's November again. A year has went by so quick. Kan? Pejam celik pejam celik sekejap je dah mid-semester break (UTP is in our mid-sem break now actually. But, I didn't go back. Since a lots of stuff need to be settled before another half semester started). I hope this month is about to be good. Yeah, a few good things gonna happen in this November. I guess. Haha :

1. Angah will be sitting on her SPM examination on 6th of November. So, I'd like to wish you, Angah. All The Best and All Iz Well! Keep Calm and try to collect as many A's as you can. Since, it gonna be tough to collect A's when you entered university life later on. Along and family loves you!♥
   
2. On the next four days, which is on November 6. I'm turning into 20! Hip hip hurray to me! Yeayyy. I'm so excited. Sounds 'forever alone' gila kan when it goes to wish birthday untuk diri sendiri? Kayyy -___- Hopefully inshaallah, the adding of my age will be parallel with the adding of my Iman, Taqwa, success, knowledge, and all good things in life. =)
   I promised I'll behave. I'll be more disciplined and organized. #NovemberWish.
   
3. These next four weeks, gonna be tough and rough. Since, my crew and me will be busy in conducting an event collaboration of MPPUTP and HELWI_UTP which is "HEY, Ladies!" event. An event that we specially created for the females community in UTP. I'm done sending the event proposal this morning to the management. Let's hope for a good news soon =)

 Visited Angah at STF last weekend with le familia.
Quality time :)

It has been two months since my grandma passed away.
May Allah be pleased with her and grant her Jannatul Firdaus. Aminnn.

Salam Jumaat to all. Assalamualaikum.

Al-Fatihah to My Late Grandmother

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

I don't know on how to begin but somehow I want to blog about it. It happens so fast in a blink of eye. I got a message telling my grandmother who I have always called 'nyai' passed away this morning around 10.00am. And, during that time, I'am having my final paper for Structured Programming and Database System subject. :'(

And I for circumstances is unable to properly morn my grandmother's death since I've another important paper tomorrow morning which is Mass Transfer Design paper. Last time I met her was a week back then during Hari Raya Puasa. Ya Allah, I don't even know it would be our last met.

It such a relief when mum told me :

"Alhamdulillah. Nyai 'pergi' dalam keadaan senang. Tersenyum. Jangan banyak menangis. Banyakkan doa. Supaya nyai ditempatkan dalam kalangan orang yang beriman ye?"

Thank you 'nyai' for taking care of us: Along, Angah and Irfan a few years back then. When abah and emak is out for work. Yet, emak is working those days. And 'nyai' is the one who always keep waiting for us coming back from the school. Again, thank you for what you've done. Thank you for giving birth to emak. Thank you for keeping the family together ♥

Inshaallah. Till we meet again in Jannah. 

To the muslim readers of my blog, may I humbly ask for your favor to 'sedekah' Al-Fatihah for my late grandmother? Her name is Aminah binti Saat. May Allah be pleased with her and grant her Jannah. 

Assalamualaikum.

DupDapDupFINALEXAMDapDupDap

Assalamualaikum. Have been going through hectic schedule recently. It feels like yesterday I just registering the courses for this semester. 17 credit hours kalau total up-semuanya sekali. What I can say, May12 semester is so fast. In a blink of eye, on the next four days, final exam will be started.

But alas, as they say, you can't escape from facing the many twists and tribulations that life has to offer. Move forward is the best choice :)

Mak provided me with a loads of foods yesterday before I went back to UTP (kuih raya and kerepek to be exact, Oh! nasik paprik not to be forgotten. Hihi). And yet, when we shake hands and hugged each other, she whispered :

"All the best final. Usaha selagi mana terdaya. Stay positive. Turn back to Him."

Exam Slip :)

With this thought whirring in my mind, I was remembered how Allah had blessed me with in previous Ramadhan. Even I never had sahur with my family. Even I only had one time iftar together with my family. But, still. Having the opportunities to celebrate Eid Mubarak together with my family is really something. I still remembered when one of my friend, Kak Suha lost her mum and her youngest brother in a car accident while they were on their way back from an airport. And one of my cousin, Kak Linda lost her beloved abah on the first week of Ramadhan. Allahurabbi :'(

InshaAllah mak. Thank you for the words. And ease my things Ya rabb.

And I hope it's not too late to wish you brothers ans sisters Happy Eid Mubarak. Forgive me for any wrongdoings and mistakes that I made either intentionally or unintentionally. And may we forgive each other too! Not too forget, congratulations for all University of Ramadhan graduates! :)

3-in-1 entry. (finalexam+ramadhan+raya) . It's better I guess ^__^

Semoga kita semua dilapangkan dada, ditenangkan akal fikiran dan dikurniakan result yang diidamkan untuk final exam kali ini. Aminnnn.

Assalamualaikum.